I am a girl
Just an ordinary girl
Who can fall in love
Who can get hurt
Who can roll down the tears
Who can smile
I am a girl
Just an ordinary girl
Who try to live an ordinary life
But everything change to extraordinary at the moment u appear
U made my life extraordinary
U taught me lots of things
U taught me how to face this crue...l world
And i dont know since when started
I started to depends on u
U are always the first to appear in my mind when i am unhappy
U are always the first to cheer me up
U are always there when i need u
But now u left my world
And make me back to my old life
Where i belong to
I am just a girl
An ordinary girl
Living an ordinary life
Without u who make it extraordinary
Maret 22, 2010
someone in heaven
U told me its time to say goodbye
And i just roll down my first tears
And u wipe it off
Telling me to stay happy
Even u are not the reason behind my happiness
U told me that u will never l
eave me
And u promise once i still love u
U will always be with me
But now where is your promise
Do u know that i still love u
U told me not t...o cry
So that u can see my smile for the last time
I started to hate this reality
That u have to leave me forever
But i know i cant do anything
U requested me to tell u that i dont love u anymore
So that u can leave with peace
Leave the world that i am inside
But how can i say that
When i still truely deeply in love with u
But i know i have to say it
For u someone who i love
And at the last moment
Right before u give ur last breath
I bend down my body
And kiss ur lips for the last time
And whispered in ur ears and tell u that
I dont love u anymore
I can see ur smile on ur charming face
For the last time before the white cloths close ur face
And i know that u left my world
Not for a day a week or a month
But forever
And i just roll down my first tears
And u wipe it off
Telling me to stay happy
Even u are not the reason behind my happiness
U told me that u will never l
eave me
And u promise once i still love u
U will always be with me
But now where is your promise
Do u know that i still love u
U told me not t...o cry
So that u can see my smile for the last time
I started to hate this reality
That u have to leave me forever
But i know i cant do anything
U requested me to tell u that i dont love u anymore
So that u can leave with peace
Leave the world that i am inside
But how can i say that
When i still truely deeply in love with u
But i know i have to say it
For u someone who i love
And at the last moment
Right before u give ur last breath
I bend down my body
And kiss ur lips for the last time
And whispered in ur ears and tell u that
I dont love u anymore
I can see ur smile on ur charming face
For the last time before the white cloths close ur face
And i know that u left my world
Not for a day a week or a month
But forever
sky, ocean and wind
Skies are big
Oceans are deep
Wind are strong
And so do my love
My love is bigger than sky
Deeper than the oceans
Stronger than the wind
And itz all because i am in love with u
No one else can make my love so amazing
Only u someone who is so special
U never know how special u are to me
Maybe u are just a bastard in other's eyes
Ma...ybe u are just a jerk in other's mouths
But u are the most charming prince for me
No one can ever replace u in my heart
And right now
I wanna asked the wind to bring my message to u
Telling u that i miss u so much
Asked the sky to give u my hug
And asked the ocean to show u how deep is my love
Oceans are deep
Wind are strong
And so do my love
My love is bigger than sky
Deeper than the oceans
Stronger than the wind
And itz all because i am in love with u
No one else can make my love so amazing
Only u someone who is so special
U never know how special u are to me
Maybe u are just a bastard in other's eyes
Ma...ybe u are just a jerk in other's mouths
But u are the most charming prince for me
No one can ever replace u in my heart
And right now
I wanna asked the wind to bring my message to u
Telling u that i miss u so much
Asked the sky to give u my hug
And asked the ocean to show u how deep is my love
someone new
I gave him my heart
He gave it away
And now i am a soul without a heart
But now i am filled again
With someone else's heart
And now some feeling came again
It makes my heart beats so fast
Makes me smile all the time
Just so happy and so excited
And this mind started to think of other one
And that one is no more him
And i once ag...ain alive
Living in another colourful life
Without him who gave my heart away
But with someone who give his heart to me
He gave it away
And now i am a soul without a heart
But now i am filled again
With someone else's heart
And now some feeling came again
It makes my heart beats so fast
Makes me smile all the time
Just so happy and so excited
And this mind started to think of other one
And that one is no more him
And i once ag...ain alive
Living in another colourful life
Without him who gave my heart away
But with someone who give his heart to me
good friend to lover
We are good friends
We hang out often
We chat and joke often
Without me knowing
He is in love with me
Being with him makes me happy
I laughed and smile often
I started to get jealous when I see him with other girl
And I realize that
I like him too
He is tall and I am short
He is cute and I am ugly
He is rich and I am poor
But this ...all doesnt matter
When love come
Everything will put aside
He propose and I accepted
With all the penguins as the witnesses
In the middle of the sea
With the wind blowing hard
And the sky giving sign
That he is the one for me
We started this love path
And hand in hand we will be together
To go through every problems
And we smile to each other
And with the pigeons as witnesses
Lips to lips stick together
And that is when and where
We started our journey
We hang out often
We chat and joke often
Without me knowing
He is in love with me
Being with him makes me happy
I laughed and smile often
I started to get jealous when I see him with other girl
And I realize that
I like him too
He is tall and I am short
He is cute and I am ugly
He is rich and I am poor
But this ...all doesnt matter
When love come
Everything will put aside
He propose and I accepted
With all the penguins as the witnesses
In the middle of the sea
With the wind blowing hard
And the sky giving sign
That he is the one for me
We started this love path
And hand in hand we will be together
To go through every problems
And we smile to each other
And with the pigeons as witnesses
Lips to lips stick together
And that is when and where
We started our journey
Maret 18, 2010
a silly girl
I am a silly girl
To stay with u even i know we dont have future
I stayed right here whenever u need me
I am always there for u
I never care how much u hurt me
I never care how many times this tears flow
All i know is ur happiness
As long as u are happy
And everything is fine with me
I dont mind that u have another girl beside... u
I dont care how much u love her
As log as i can stay beside u
Then everything is fine with me
I know i am just a silly girl
To stay with u even u dont care about me
I just want to see ur smile
And everything is fine with me
To stay with u even i know we dont have future
I stayed right here whenever u need me
I am always there for u
I never care how much u hurt me
I never care how many times this tears flow
All i know is ur happiness
As long as u are happy
And everything is fine with me
I dont mind that u have another girl beside... u
I dont care how much u love her
As log as i can stay beside u
Then everything is fine with me
I know i am just a silly girl
To stay with u even u dont care about me
I just want to see ur smile
And everything is fine with me
do u ever know
If there is one reason that can keep my smile
That one reason is u
Do u ever know the truth that u are always the reason behind my smile?
Do u know that i always smile when i think of u?
Do u know that only u can make my world go upside down?
Do u know that u are the rainbow of my life?
I hope one day u will know all this tr...uth
That i actually write all this things while thinking of u
And hope u know that
I am the only one
The only girl
Who love u truely
With all my heart
And all my soul
Forever and ever
That one reason is u
Do u ever know the truth that u are always the reason behind my smile?
Do u know that i always smile when i think of u?
Do u know that only u can make my world go upside down?
Do u know that u are the rainbow of my life?
I hope one day u will know all this tr...uth
That i actually write all this things while thinking of u
And hope u know that
I am the only one
The only girl
Who love u truely
With all my heart
And all my soul
Forever and ever
u
The only smile that i wanna see
Is the smile of urs
The only hug that i wanna get
Is the hug of urs
The only lips that i wanna kiss
Is the lips of urs
The only thing that i want
Is to be with u
And the only person that i love
Is u
Is the smile of urs
The only hug that i wanna get
Is the hug of urs
The only lips that i wanna kiss
Is the lips of urs
The only thing that i want
Is to be with u
And the only person that i love
Is u
i actually love u
Whenever i met u
I started talking about other guys
Not because i love them all
But because i wanna make u jealous
And whenever u talked about other girls
This heart start paining
Because i love u too much
But u never realize that i love u
All u know is i am ur best friend
And once i still have the oppurtunity to stay as friend...
I will always stay as friend
Cause i dun wanna ruin our friendship
Just for love
Cos i m not ready to lose u yet
I'd stay beside u
As ur true friend
Until the day u realize
That i actually love u
I started talking about other guys
Not because i love them all
But because i wanna make u jealous
And whenever u talked about other girls
This heart start paining
Because i love u too much
But u never realize that i love u
All u know is i am ur best friend
And once i still have the oppurtunity to stay as friend...
I will always stay as friend
Cause i dun wanna ruin our friendship
Just for love
Cos i m not ready to lose u yet
I'd stay beside u
As ur true friend
Until the day u realize
That i actually love u
u never know
U once leave my world
Leaving me with all the scars u made
With all the pains
U pour salt on it
Without knowing how does it feel
And i tried my best
To cure my own scars
And tried to forget u
But then all the efforts are a waste now
Cause u came into my life once again
And make me fall in love Once again to u
And now i dont know... what to do
I just want to be with u
No matter what's my status
No matter what position i stand in ur heart
As long as i am with u
As long as i know u need me
As long as i am still in ur heart
Everything doesnt matter
And i will always try my best to cheer u up
Try my best to be with u whenever u need me
Try my best to be the best for u
Even without u knowing how hurt i am feeling
Even without u knowing how i truely feel for u
Leaving me with all the scars u made
With all the pains
U pour salt on it
Without knowing how does it feel
And i tried my best
To cure my own scars
And tried to forget u
But then all the efforts are a waste now
Cause u came into my life once again
And make me fall in love Once again to u
And now i dont know... what to do
I just want to be with u
No matter what's my status
No matter what position i stand in ur heart
As long as i am with u
As long as i know u need me
As long as i am still in ur heart
Everything doesnt matter
And i will always try my best to cheer u up
Try my best to be with u whenever u need me
Try my best to be the best for u
Even without u knowing how hurt i am feeling
Even without u knowing how i truely feel for u
stay here
I dont know how u felt for me
And i dont dare to ask nor expect anything
Cause i am not as brave as before
Everytime when u kiss my forehead
I felt the love u gave me
But i really dont dare to expect anything from u
I love the way u kiss my forehead
I love the way u touch my skin
I love the way u care for me
I love the way u pl...ay with my hair
I love the way u hug me tight
I love everything that u done to me
Caude the fact is that
I love u so much
I cant tell u how much i love u
Cause i dun wanna lose u again
I am satisfy enough even we just stay like this
Not as friend and not as lover too
But i really cant bear to lose u anymore
Let me just stay right here
To love u all the time
I am willing to let go everything
Just give me one chance
To stay here and love u till the end of my life
And i dont dare to ask nor expect anything
Cause i am not as brave as before
Everytime when u kiss my forehead
I felt the love u gave me
But i really dont dare to expect anything from u
I love the way u kiss my forehead
I love the way u touch my skin
I love the way u care for me
I love the way u pl...ay with my hair
I love the way u hug me tight
I love everything that u done to me
Caude the fact is that
I love u so much
I cant tell u how much i love u
Cause i dun wanna lose u again
I am satisfy enough even we just stay like this
Not as friend and not as lover too
But i really cant bear to lose u anymore
Let me just stay right here
To love u all the time
I am willing to let go everything
Just give me one chance
To stay here and love u till the end of my life
if only
I woke up in the morning
With smile on my face
Cause i dreamt of u
Me beloved guy
I dreamt that we are together
Hands in hands walking down the street
Everyone looking at us with the jealous face
How perfect we are
But that is only a dreamt
Only my own dreamt
If only that is true
I will be the most happiest girl ever
If only i cou...ld say i love u
Then u will be mine now
But that 1 sentence, 3 words and 8 letters are so hard to come out from my lips
Cause remembering that it ever happened once
And u left my world
And now hardly u come back
I will not let u go easily
I will keep u beside me
Even if u only look for me when u need me
Even if u only u are back to hurt me
I dont care for anything
Cos u r the only one that i care
Only u and always u
With smile on my face
Cause i dreamt of u
Me beloved guy
I dreamt that we are together
Hands in hands walking down the street
Everyone looking at us with the jealous face
How perfect we are
But that is only a dreamt
Only my own dreamt
If only that is true
I will be the most happiest girl ever
If only i cou...ld say i love u
Then u will be mine now
But that 1 sentence, 3 words and 8 letters are so hard to come out from my lips
Cause remembering that it ever happened once
And u left my world
And now hardly u come back
I will not let u go easily
I will keep u beside me
Even if u only look for me when u need me
Even if u only u are back to hurt me
I dont care for anything
Cos u r the only one that i care
Only u and always u
only u
I open your page everyday i woke up
It has been my daily things to do
Whenever i feel upset
I will just look at ur picture
Read thru all the messages
And my smile come crossed again
Whenever this tears gonna roll off
I started to think of u
All the 1001 ways u used to keep my smile
Even right now after months of ignorance
When n...ow we met again
U are still the same u
Using lots of ways
To just keep my smile
Putting so much effort to make me smile
Without knowing the simple way
Which is to accept my love and love me back
With that way
I can smile every single minute even in my sleep
But i dont expect that u will love me back
Cause u told me that u will never fall in love
And i will only stay beside u
To be the very first person that u remembered whenever u need somoene to talk to
And i promise u
That i will never leave a single step
Not before u ask me to leave
I will stay right here forever
I promise
It has been my daily things to do
Whenever i feel upset
I will just look at ur picture
Read thru all the messages
And my smile come crossed again
Whenever this tears gonna roll off
I started to think of u
All the 1001 ways u used to keep my smile
Even right now after months of ignorance
When n...ow we met again
U are still the same u
Using lots of ways
To just keep my smile
Putting so much effort to make me smile
Without knowing the simple way
Which is to accept my love and love me back
With that way
I can smile every single minute even in my sleep
But i dont expect that u will love me back
Cause u told me that u will never fall in love
And i will only stay beside u
To be the very first person that u remembered whenever u need somoene to talk to
And i promise u
That i will never leave a single step
Not before u ask me to leave
I will stay right here forever
I promise
it started with a smile
It started with a smile
Started with a hug
And started with a simple wish
With that 3 simple things
U made me fall in love with u
From the very first time i met u
This heart has belong to u
U never realize how u sneak into my heart and soul
U always tell me how bad u are
U always warn me that u are a jerk
But i never care nor be...lieve
Cause u always makes me smile with ur own ways
I just wanna stay with u
No matter what is the risk
Just to be with u
Even there are thousand and millions people who dont agree
But i dont care
Cause its between u and me
They dont know how much u mean to me and they will never know
This heart and soul
Has belong to u since the day i met u
And no one will replace u in my heart
Till the day u walk out my life by urself
Started with a hug
And started with a simple wish
With that 3 simple things
U made me fall in love with u
From the very first time i met u
This heart has belong to u
U never realize how u sneak into my heart and soul
U always tell me how bad u are
U always warn me that u are a jerk
But i never care nor be...lieve
Cause u always makes me smile with ur own ways
I just wanna stay with u
No matter what is the risk
Just to be with u
Even there are thousand and millions people who dont agree
But i dont care
Cause its between u and me
They dont know how much u mean to me and they will never know
This heart and soul
Has belong to u since the day i met u
And no one will replace u in my heart
Till the day u walk out my life by urself
Maret 17, 2010
forget u
From the day that i met u
My life has been so colourful
From the day that i met u
I appreciate life more
But now when u r gone
The sun has set too
And the sky just keep raining
And this heart keep bleeding
Trying my best to forget u but its too hard
Wherever i go and whatever i do
It makes me think of u
Everything here remind me ...of u
The only thing to make myself sleep well at night is
To get drunk and forget everything
Forget that u left my world
Forget that u are gone
My life has been so colourful
From the day that i met u
I appreciate life more
But now when u r gone
The sun has set too
And the sky just keep raining
And this heart keep bleeding
Trying my best to forget u but its too hard
Wherever i go and whatever i do
It makes me think of u
Everything here remind me ...of u
The only thing to make myself sleep well at night is
To get drunk and forget everything
Forget that u left my world
Forget that u are gone
Just for u
Life isnt about waiting for the storm to past but its about learning to dance in the rain...
And i learn this dance from u
Someone special in my world
And for u i face this world
With the best smile i can give
And no one will know that
I am giving the fake smile
Cause when i am alone
This tears will start rolling
And when i am... with people
This smile will stay there
But i will still remember
Everything that u have taught me
I will live this life
For u
Just for u
And i learn this dance from u
Someone special in my world
And for u i face this world
With the best smile i can give
And no one will know that
I am giving the fake smile
Cause when i am alone
This tears will start rolling
And when i am... with people
This smile will stay there
But i will still remember
Everything that u have taught me
I will live this life
For u
Just for u
Maret 15, 2010
Hurt by u
Today i realize something
That i shouldnt be with u
U have thousands and millions of excuses for every mistakes u have done
And i always give u all my forgiveness
But again and again
U hurt this heart
Again and again
U make this tears flows
And i dont know how much longer i can stand
To be hurt by u
I know i am a silly girl
To k...eep forgiving u
For every mistakes that u have done
But i really dont know how to stop
I dont know how to leave u
This heart has stick to u
And it is no longer in me
But i never regret that i met
And i knew u
Cause u are part of my colourful life
Even u always hurt me
But yet this heart still wanna be with u
I really hope that u know
That i really truely love u
With all my heart and soul
No matter how many times u hurt me
But i will still be with u
Forever and ever
That i shouldnt be with u
U have thousands and millions of excuses for every mistakes u have done
And i always give u all my forgiveness
But again and again
U hurt this heart
Again and again
U make this tears flows
And i dont know how much longer i can stand
To be hurt by u
I know i am a silly girl
To k...eep forgiving u
For every mistakes that u have done
But i really dont know how to stop
I dont know how to leave u
This heart has stick to u
And it is no longer in me
But i never regret that i met
And i knew u
Cause u are part of my colourful life
Even u always hurt me
But yet this heart still wanna be with u
I really hope that u know
That i really truely love u
With all my heart and soul
No matter how many times u hurt me
But i will still be with u
Forever and ever
Maret 14, 2010
By your side
Missing you...
Right this moment...
When I am all alone...
This mind keeps thinking of you...
I can't stop this mind from cherishing all the memories we had...
What can I do to have you back in my life???
I just want you to be with me...
Even we are not lover...
At least let me stay beside you...
To hear and listen all your sor...row and happiness...
To all your problems...
To be the one you wanna talk to when you feel like talking...
I don't mind to be under your shadow...
As long as I know you are there with me...
As I don't know how to face this world...
Without you by my side...
This world is empty...
This world has no more colour...
Since the day you went out of my life...
I don't know what this world meant to me anymore...
Cause since the day I met you...
You are all the reason I wake up in the morning...
You are the reason I keep smiling...
You are all the reason I live my life...
I want all the memories to stay alive...
Once more...
Just once more...
As I don't know how long we are going to stay alive...
I want to spend all my life...
Just with you...
By your side...
Right this moment...
When I am all alone...
This mind keeps thinking of you...
I can't stop this mind from cherishing all the memories we had...
What can I do to have you back in my life???
I just want you to be with me...
Even we are not lover...
At least let me stay beside you...
To hear and listen all your sor...row and happiness...
To all your problems...
To be the one you wanna talk to when you feel like talking...
I don't mind to be under your shadow...
As long as I know you are there with me...
As I don't know how to face this world...
Without you by my side...
This world is empty...
This world has no more colour...
Since the day you went out of my life...
I don't know what this world meant to me anymore...
Cause since the day I met you...
You are all the reason I wake up in the morning...
You are the reason I keep smiling...
You are all the reason I live my life...
I want all the memories to stay alive...
Once more...
Just once more...
As I don't know how long we are going to stay alive...
I want to spend all my life...
Just with you...
By your side...
U r Gone
Today when i woke up
I open my eyes
And i found out
That u r not laying beside me
I keep searching
But i still cant find u
And just at that very moment
I realize that
U have gone away from my life
But till now
I still cant accept the truth
That u left
Cause i still can feel u
Feel u r beside me
Whenever i am sad
I will look for u
Cau...se i get used to ur jokes
That makes me laugh all the time
But now
Everything is gone
If i can hope for one thing
I would hope that u stay here
Right beside me
Forever and ever
I open my eyes
And i found out
That u r not laying beside me
I keep searching
But i still cant find u
And just at that very moment
I realize that
U have gone away from my life
But till now
I still cant accept the truth
That u left
Cause i still can feel u
Feel u r beside me
Whenever i am sad
I will look for u
Cau...se i get used to ur jokes
That makes me laugh all the time
But now
Everything is gone
If i can hope for one thing
I would hope that u stay here
Right beside me
Forever and ever
One Wish
If i could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday,
To the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you...
I would wish to wake up everyday,
To the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you...
The day u walked out
Since the day u walk out of my life
I cant feel the rainbow of life anymore
No matter how hard i tried
But still everythig back to black n white
I dont know the reason u walk out
But i know once u dont belong to others
I still have the chance to make u mine
When i dont look for u
U came and look for me
This means that i m stil...l in ur mind and heart
And for this reason
I wont stop loving u
People will say i'm stupid
To love a machine like u
Who dont deserve my life
But when they know how wonderful u are
They will realize that u r my rainbow
Rainbow of my life
Being with u is the only thing i want
Cos i know i wont have another rainbow
To fill my black n white life
Just to be with u
Makes my world merry goes round
Come back to me will u
Let me love u once more time
With all my heart and soul
I cant feel the rainbow of life anymore
No matter how hard i tried
But still everythig back to black n white
I dont know the reason u walk out
But i know once u dont belong to others
I still have the chance to make u mine
When i dont look for u
U came and look for me
This means that i m stil...l in ur mind and heart
And for this reason
I wont stop loving u
People will say i'm stupid
To love a machine like u
Who dont deserve my life
But when they know how wonderful u are
They will realize that u r my rainbow
Rainbow of my life
Being with u is the only thing i want
Cos i know i wont have another rainbow
To fill my black n white life
Just to be with u
Makes my world merry goes round
Come back to me will u
Let me love u once more time
With all my heart and soul
To love n being love
Laying here alone
Wishing that u are here with me
To give me all the warmth that i felt before
Being love by u is the only thing that makes me happy
How i hope u know what i feel for u
Telling u how much i love u
Is the only thing that i wanted to do now
Being with u forever is the only thing i wish to do
I always pray to God
So... that u will stay with me
Forever and ever
So that u will know how much i love u
So that u will know that i miss u so much
I miss all the things that u been through with me
Without them my life is nothing
I miss u and i really do
I just wanna shout to the world
Telling them that i love u so much
Wishing that u are here with me
To give me all the warmth that i felt before
Being love by u is the only thing that makes me happy
How i hope u know what i feel for u
Telling u how much i love u
Is the only thing that i wanted to do now
Being with u forever is the only thing i wish to do
I always pray to God
So... that u will stay with me
Forever and ever
So that u will know how much i love u
So that u will know that i miss u so much
I miss all the things that u been through with me
Without them my life is nothing
I miss u and i really do
I just wanna shout to the world
Telling them that i love u so much
Here to love u
I had love at first sight with u
I love u since the first time i met u
U came close to me
U hug me tight
U tell me not to fall in love with u
And i kept telling u that
I wont fall in love with u
But then i realize i am just lying
Cos i am deeply madly in love with u
And now when u know the truth
U are gone
U left my world
And this... is the risk that i should take
For loving someone like u
But then i never regret
That i met u and knew u
Cause loving u is the best thing in my life
Even now i cant be close to u anymore
But i will always pray for ur happiness
And i am willing to change my happiness
Just to see u happy
Cause when i see u happy
I am happy too
My love
Do u know how much i love u and miss u
I miss the warmth of ur hug
The passions of ur kiss
The smile on ur face
I miss every part of u
I really hope u will know about this
About all my feelings to u
I wanna show u that
I am not here to hurt u
But to LOVE u...
I love u since the first time i met u
U came close to me
U hug me tight
U tell me not to fall in love with u
And i kept telling u that
I wont fall in love with u
But then i realize i am just lying
Cos i am deeply madly in love with u
And now when u know the truth
U are gone
U left my world
And this... is the risk that i should take
For loving someone like u
But then i never regret
That i met u and knew u
Cause loving u is the best thing in my life
Even now i cant be close to u anymore
But i will always pray for ur happiness
And i am willing to change my happiness
Just to see u happy
Cause when i see u happy
I am happy too
My love
Do u know how much i love u and miss u
I miss the warmth of ur hug
The passions of ur kiss
The smile on ur face
I miss every part of u
I really hope u will know about this
About all my feelings to u
I wanna show u that
I am not here to hurt u
But to LOVE u...
Last Day
Today is the last day i met u
Gonna miss u so much
Tomorrow u are leaving
And i dont know when i can see u again
I cant tell u how much i miss u
And now i realize i love u
Eventhough we had quarrel sometime
Eventhough u made me cry before
But i still miss u
I hate when we have to be separated
Cause i dont wanna leave u
I dont wan...na be far from u
I miss u and i really do
This tears just cant stop rolling
I really hope there is someone who can stop it
Cause i am really tired
My head is spinning an my eye is swollen
But this tears just cant stop rolling
I want u to be here with me
Right now till forever
I dont care how many people dont agree our relation
Cause it's between u and me
Not others
Please dont leave me cause i am not ready
Not ready to lose u
Baby i wanna tell u
I miss u and i love u
Gonna miss u so much
Tomorrow u are leaving
And i dont know when i can see u again
I cant tell u how much i miss u
And now i realize i love u
Eventhough we had quarrel sometime
Eventhough u made me cry before
But i still miss u
I hate when we have to be separated
Cause i dont wanna leave u
I dont wan...na be far from u
I miss u and i really do
This tears just cant stop rolling
I really hope there is someone who can stop it
Cause i am really tired
My head is spinning an my eye is swollen
But this tears just cant stop rolling
I want u to be here with me
Right now till forever
I dont care how many people dont agree our relation
Cause it's between u and me
Not others
Please dont leave me cause i am not ready
Not ready to lose u
Baby i wanna tell u
I miss u and i love u
I met u
3 months ago i met u
Tats the 1st time we met
And we feel comfortable with each other
So we kept on meeting
And we start this relation
But now u are leaving
U told me this before
But now when i really have to face it
I dont know how to face it
I dont know how to see u leave
I dont want u to leave
But what else can i do
We dont sp...end much time together
But all the time that we spent together
Has gave me memories and lessons
Which makes me grew up more
I will miss u
Thanks for coming into my life
And become part of my life
I really appreciate it
I pray that u will success in future
I will pray for every path tat u walk through
So that God will always bless u
Leaving u is the hardest thing to do
But after all u have me time to prepare
But yet i havent manage it
I will try not to cry infront of u
As i know u wanted to see my smile
For u i will always keep this smile
Be strong and be happy
Cause i am here always to support u
Take care dear
Tats the 1st time we met
And we feel comfortable with each other
So we kept on meeting
And we start this relation
But now u are leaving
U told me this before
But now when i really have to face it
I dont know how to face it
I dont know how to see u leave
I dont want u to leave
But what else can i do
We dont sp...end much time together
But all the time that we spent together
Has gave me memories and lessons
Which makes me grew up more
I will miss u
Thanks for coming into my life
And become part of my life
I really appreciate it
I pray that u will success in future
I will pray for every path tat u walk through
So that God will always bless u
Leaving u is the hardest thing to do
But after all u have me time to prepare
But yet i havent manage it
I will try not to cry infront of u
As i know u wanted to see my smile
For u i will always keep this smile
Be strong and be happy
Cause i am here always to support u
Take care dear
My Bitch
Now again
I will sleep without ur gud night call
I will sleep without ur kiss
Without ur hug
I miss u so much
I think of us every hour
Cherishing all the memories we had together
I am a stupid gal
Cause i never appreaciate ur attendance
When u r still with me
And now when u r gone
I miss every moment we spend together
I dont kno...w when i can see u
But i really hope i can see u again
Before we both belong to others
But i want u to know
Once we dont belong to others
I am still yours
And u are still mine
This is our promise that we made
The last night we met each other
I hope u will remember this promise we made
Baby, u r my bitch...
I will sleep without ur gud night call
I will sleep without ur kiss
Without ur hug
I miss u so much
I think of us every hour
Cherishing all the memories we had together
I am a stupid gal
Cause i never appreaciate ur attendance
When u r still with me
And now when u r gone
I miss every moment we spend together
I dont kno...w when i can see u
But i really hope i can see u again
Before we both belong to others
But i want u to know
Once we dont belong to others
I am still yours
And u are still mine
This is our promise that we made
The last night we met each other
I hope u will remember this promise we made
Baby, u r my bitch...
first day waiting
Today is the first day u left me
Its also the starting day for me to wait for u
Right here at the very first place we met
U told me to live my life with smile
Cause u love my smile
And for u someone i love
I will always keep smiling
I dont know when u will be back
But i dont care nothing
Cause i will always be right here
Waiting... for u my love
I will keep my love n my smile
Just for u dear
And i promise u my dear
That i will live my life happily
Till the day u come back
I promise there will be no more twars
I will wait for u with my smile
I promise to be here
I promise
Its also the starting day for me to wait for u
Right here at the very first place we met
U told me to live my life with smile
Cause u love my smile
And for u someone i love
I will always keep smiling
I dont know when u will be back
But i dont care nothing
Cause i will always be right here
Waiting... for u my love
I will keep my love n my smile
Just for u dear
And i promise u my dear
That i will live my life happily
Till the day u come back
I promise there will be no more twars
I will wait for u with my smile
I promise to be here
I promise
Missing u badly
Laying on the bed
Seeing all the photos
Hearing your voice
Makes me think of you
Looking at the blue sky
Feeling the breeze of the air
Hearing the chirping of birds
Wishing that you are here with me
Opening my laptop
Started my yahoo messenger
Checking on the list
Hoping to see you online
Missing your hug
Missing your vo...ice
Missing your smile
Missing your everything
We are now far apart
Separated by oceans and lands
The distance is really big
With thousand of miles away
The distance that separate us now
Will never fades my love for you
I will still love you
With all my heart
I'll remember the things you taught me
I'll remember the love you gave me
I'll remember the warmth of your hug
I'll remember you always till the end
Seeing all the photos
Hearing your voice
Makes me think of you
Looking at the blue sky
Feeling the breeze of the air
Hearing the chirping of birds
Wishing that you are here with me
Opening my laptop
Started my yahoo messenger
Checking on the list
Hoping to see you online
Missing your hug
Missing your vo...ice
Missing your smile
Missing your everything
We are now far apart
Separated by oceans and lands
The distance is really big
With thousand of miles away
The distance that separate us now
Will never fades my love for you
I will still love you
With all my heart
I'll remember the things you taught me
I'll remember the love you gave me
I'll remember the warmth of your hug
I'll remember you always till the end
my fantasy thinking
Tonight i am with u
How happy i am to be with u
We talked and chatted
About what happened today
U hug me when i feel cold
To make me feel warm
I love the warmth of ur body
U kissed me with ur sexy lips
Showing me that i am the only one that u wanna kiss
And i really feel happy
U brought me to our beach
And spend the night there
Si...tting and looking at the stars
Side by side with u
Makes me feel am the luckiest gal on earth
Suddenly i woke up
By the reality that u are not here
Its all my imagination
Baby u dont know how much i miss u
How i hope u will never leave
And i will never feel lonely
Without u by my side
This loneliness is killing me
I dont know what should i do now
Just want u to know baby
That i miss u alot
How happy i am to be with u
We talked and chatted
About what happened today
U hug me when i feel cold
To make me feel warm
I love the warmth of ur body
U kissed me with ur sexy lips
Showing me that i am the only one that u wanna kiss
And i really feel happy
U brought me to our beach
And spend the night there
Si...tting and looking at the stars
Side by side with u
Makes me feel am the luckiest gal on earth
Suddenly i woke up
By the reality that u are not here
Its all my imagination
Baby u dont know how much i miss u
How i hope u will never leave
And i will never feel lonely
Without u by my side
This loneliness is killing me
I dont know what should i do now
Just want u to know baby
That i miss u alot
Dream of u
I woke up this morning
With tears in my eyes
And pain in my heart
Cause i realize that
In this reality world
U r not here with me
How i hope i can stay asleep
Stay in my dreams
In my own fantasy
My own world
Where i can just be with u
But i know its impossible
I have to get up one day
To face thia cruel world alone
Without u by my s...ide
I am a gal
Who is waiting for u
Someone who i love
Please be back baby
As i started to hate this loneliness
I miss u
With tears in my eyes
And pain in my heart
Cause i realize that
In this reality world
U r not here with me
How i hope i can stay asleep
Stay in my dreams
In my own fantasy
My own world
Where i can just be with u
But i know its impossible
I have to get up one day
To face thia cruel world alone
Without u by my s...ide
I am a gal
Who is waiting for u
Someone who i love
Please be back baby
As i started to hate this loneliness
I miss u
Our Memories
Looking at our photos
Reminds me of our old days
Our old memories
Reading all ur messages
Makes me feel flying without wings
All the words that u used to send me
I can still feel the love inside
Never know that i will ever have today
Where i have to live alone in this world
Without u by my side
And once again while writing this...
Am thinking of u and us
And this tears start rolling down
But i wipe it off
As i ever promised u
That i wont cry anymore
This smile suddenly appear on this face
And i know that deep in my heart
I love u so much
That all ur photos and messages can actually make me smile
World without u is tough
But i have to survive
Just for u my love
Reminds me of our old days
Our old memories
Reading all ur messages
Makes me feel flying without wings
All the words that u used to send me
I can still feel the love inside
Never know that i will ever have today
Where i have to live alone in this world
Without u by my side
And once again while writing this...
Am thinking of u and us
And this tears start rolling down
But i wipe it off
As i ever promised u
That i wont cry anymore
This smile suddenly appear on this face
And i know that deep in my heart
I love u so much
That all ur photos and messages can actually make me smile
World without u is tough
But i have to survive
Just for u my love
Think of u again
The day has gone
And i want u so much
The night has come
And i miss u so much
I wanna spend all my life
Just to be with u
I told myself not to fall in love with u
But i never can
And i dont know since when
I started to fall in love
And being the most lucky gal
To be near u
To get the kisses and hugs from u
But its all the past
Every...thing has come to an end
And i can just cherish the memories
I'm really missing u right now
Missing all the days that we spend together
Wishing that time could stop right at that moment
So that today will never come
The day when u left me will never come
So that i will always be with u
And u will always be mine
Right now right this moment
I keep tuning the same song
Again and again
Hoping to hear ur voice singing along
I now knew that
I can never get u out of my mind
No matter what i do
It always remind me of u
When i'm playing pool
When i'm playing bowling
Remember those fun time with u
Really miss u badly here
Do u ever think of me
Even just for a second
Cos i think of u
For every seconds in my life
I cant take u out of my mind
And now i dont know what to do
I really want u to be here with me
Just for once more time
Let me feel ur kiss and hug
Just for once more time
And i want u so much
The night has come
And i miss u so much
I wanna spend all my life
Just to be with u
I told myself not to fall in love with u
But i never can
And i dont know since when
I started to fall in love
And being the most lucky gal
To be near u
To get the kisses and hugs from u
But its all the past
Every...thing has come to an end
And i can just cherish the memories
I'm really missing u right now
Missing all the days that we spend together
Wishing that time could stop right at that moment
So that today will never come
The day when u left me will never come
So that i will always be with u
And u will always be mine
Right now right this moment
I keep tuning the same song
Again and again
Hoping to hear ur voice singing along
I now knew that
I can never get u out of my mind
No matter what i do
It always remind me of u
When i'm playing pool
When i'm playing bowling
Remember those fun time with u
Really miss u badly here
Do u ever think of me
Even just for a second
Cos i think of u
For every seconds in my life
I cant take u out of my mind
And now i dont know what to do
I really want u to be here with me
Just for once more time
Let me feel ur kiss and hug
Just for once more time
Emptyness
Last night i went to a place called equinox
Itz a bar and restaurant
With a friend i sit on a table
There are lots of people there
And i just cant stop searching
Searching for a face that i dream every night
A face that i miss every day
But all i got is emptyness
U are not there
And i drank a lot
To make myself unconcious
So that... i never be in this reality world
Where u are not here with me
I want to be with u but i cant
This love and life
Is killing me slowly
I dun wanna be here anymore
Itz a bar and restaurant
With a friend i sit on a table
There are lots of people there
And i just cant stop searching
Searching for a face that i dream every night
A face that i miss every day
But all i got is emptyness
U are not there
And i drank a lot
To make myself unconcious
So that... i never be in this reality world
Where u are not here with me
I want to be with u but i cant
This love and life
Is killing me slowly
I dun wanna be here anymore
Keep waiting
Ting tong ting tong
The church bells sound
And i looked into myself
Am wearing the most beautiful white wedding dress
Standing next to the most charming prince
We both have the best smile on our face
And so do all the guests
The priest come in front of us
And read all the wedding promises
And u told me that
U will love me foreve...r and ever
And so do i
And at that very moment
We said our promises
And said "i do"
And guests cheering
And u kiss me on my lips
Tears rolling down on my cheek and u wipe it away
U ask me why i am sad
And i answered u
"this is happy tears"
And u laughed at me and said i am silly
But i dont care
Today onwards i am your silly girl
Till the end of my life
We walked out the church and start our new life
Suddenly i feel hot
When i woke up and opened my eyes
I realized that i am once again
Stuck in my reality world
But i dont care and will keep on dreaming and waiting
Till the day my real prince charming come and pick me up
The church bells sound
And i looked into myself
Am wearing the most beautiful white wedding dress
Standing next to the most charming prince
We both have the best smile on our face
And so do all the guests
The priest come in front of us
And read all the wedding promises
And u told me that
U will love me foreve...r and ever
And so do i
And at that very moment
We said our promises
And said "i do"
And guests cheering
And u kiss me on my lips
Tears rolling down on my cheek and u wipe it away
U ask me why i am sad
And i answered u
"this is happy tears"
And u laughed at me and said i am silly
But i dont care
Today onwards i am your silly girl
Till the end of my life
We walked out the church and start our new life
Suddenly i feel hot
When i woke up and opened my eyes
I realized that i am once again
Stuck in my reality world
But i dont care and will keep on dreaming and waiting
Till the day my real prince charming come and pick me up
My Past
Thought crosses my mind
Everything bout u
I started to think of u
Once again
I dont know how long more i need to take
To start forgetting u
Again and again
U came to my life
I just hate it
When i can forget bout u
And u just came in again
And messed up all the efforts that I did
For the whole 2 months
Do u know how much suffer i got
When i tried all the efforts
To just forget u and buried u
And now
I have to feel the same suffer
Once again just becos of ur ego
U always come and go whenever u want
And now i wont let u do tat again
Not to my life anymore
U will always stay as my past
I told myself to bury u in the bottom of my heart
Where no one can dig it out
Even myself
But now
U r the one who dig it
U remind me of every memories we had
All the laughter and happiness
All the lessons that u taught me
And the last time we met
U once again taught me the 4 lessons
And i will never ever forget it
Cos u r the one who change my life
I will follow all the 4 rules
And u will see that i am actually ur duplicate
But do remember
U will always be one of my past
Always and always
Everything bout u
I started to think of u
Once again
I dont know how long more i need to take
To start forgetting u
Again and again
U came to my life
I just hate it
When i can forget bout u
And u just came in again
And messed up all the efforts that I did
For the whole 2 months
Do u know how much suffer i got
When i tried all the efforts
To just forget u and buried u
And now
I have to feel the same suffer
Once again just becos of ur ego
U always come and go whenever u want
And now i wont let u do tat again
Not to my life anymore
U will always stay as my past
I told myself to bury u in the bottom of my heart
Where no one can dig it out
Even myself
But now
U r the one who dig it
U remind me of every memories we had
All the laughter and happiness
All the lessons that u taught me
And the last time we met
U once again taught me the 4 lessons
And i will never ever forget it
Cos u r the one who change my life
I will follow all the 4 rules
And u will see that i am actually ur duplicate
But do remember
U will always be one of my past
Always and always
Death Do Us Part
The sun has shine into my windows
And i felt the kiss on my cheeks
And a warm morning hug
Slowly i opened my eyes
And see the face of urs
Someone who i truely love
U told me to get ready while u will cook me breakfast
And am so happy that i jumped out the bed and get ready
Came out from my bathroom and smell something nice
When i am putting on my make up
The smells get stronger
And it appear infront of me
The best breakfast i ever had
From the best cook i ever known
U told me u will take me to somewhere
And u never tell me where it is
I get ready and jumped into the car
U laughed at me and saying that i am childish
But i dont care
Cos i am too excited
U drove for a long time
On a very long way
And we talked a lot
We laugh and smile
Suddenly a truck appear
Right infront of our car
And u cant avoid it
The car bumped into the truck and lastly to a tree
And i looked at u
U are almost breathless
And so do i
We kept staring at each others eye
Deep into our heart
And we hold each others hand
And i told u that
I am happy to know u
To be with u till the end of my life
And i will always love u
Till death do us part
And u told me the same thing
And right after that
We both gives out our last breath
With the word i love u in it
And i felt the kiss on my cheeks
And a warm morning hug
Slowly i opened my eyes
And see the face of urs
Someone who i truely love
U told me to get ready while u will cook me breakfast
And am so happy that i jumped out the bed and get ready
Came out from my bathroom and smell something nice
When i am putting on my make up
The smells get stronger
And it appear infront of me
The best breakfast i ever had
From the best cook i ever known
U told me u will take me to somewhere
And u never tell me where it is
I get ready and jumped into the car
U laughed at me and saying that i am childish
But i dont care
Cos i am too excited
U drove for a long time
On a very long way
And we talked a lot
We laugh and smile
Suddenly a truck appear
Right infront of our car
And u cant avoid it
The car bumped into the truck and lastly to a tree
And i looked at u
U are almost breathless
And so do i
We kept staring at each others eye
Deep into our heart
And we hold each others hand
And i told u that
I am happy to know u
To be with u till the end of my life
And i will always love u
Till death do us part
And u told me the same thing
And right after that
We both gives out our last breath
With the word i love u in it
Found u
There's a quote says
Everything happen for a good reason
But i never see good reason behind everything that happen in my life
All i know is life sucks
But then suddenly my life change
At the moment i met u
My life has become wonderful
Maybe that is the good reason
After years of waiting
Years of searching
And now i found u
In the middle of the earth
U stood there and smile to me
Putting ur hand out and reach mine
Pull me to u and hug me tight
Like a kid has found his favourite toy
And now i am all urs
In the crowd u hold me tight
Lips to lips stick together
And the feeling just came out
A feeling that i never had with someone else
With all my passion i kiss u
Showing that there is no one i want beside u
But u show me more
U show me that u need me and need no one else
And u told me i am ur future
And now i am telling u that
Baby u are my forever
Everything happen for a good reason
But i never see good reason behind everything that happen in my life
All i know is life sucks
But then suddenly my life change
At the moment i met u
My life has become wonderful
Maybe that is the good reason
After years of waiting
Years of searching
And now i found u
In the middle of the earth
U stood there and smile to me
Putting ur hand out and reach mine
Pull me to u and hug me tight
Like a kid has found his favourite toy
And now i am all urs
In the crowd u hold me tight
Lips to lips stick together
And the feeling just came out
A feeling that i never had with someone else
With all my passion i kiss u
Showing that there is no one i want beside u
But u show me more
U show me that u need me and need no one else
And u told me i am ur future
And now i am telling u that
Baby u are my forever
Once more time
The distance between us is so big
Miles and miles away
I cant see u nor touch u
I cant feel u nor kiss u
When u r so far away from me
Then i realize how important u r to me
Can i still have u
Once more time in my life
Can i be with u
Just once more time
I will not care for what others say
As long as i can be with u
Everything doesnt matter anymore
Itz between u and me
No one else
And i promise that no one will separate me from u
Not even the distance will
I just want u again in my life
Just once more time
I dont want anything else
Only u baby
Please give me another chance
To be with u for the last time
To love u and care for u
Just for one last time baby
Miles and miles away
I cant see u nor touch u
I cant feel u nor kiss u
When u r so far away from me
Then i realize how important u r to me
Can i still have u
Once more time in my life
Can i be with u
Just once more time
I will not care for what others say
As long as i can be with u
Everything doesnt matter anymore
Itz between u and me
No one else
And i promise that no one will separate me from u
Not even the distance will
I just want u again in my life
Just once more time
I dont want anything else
Only u baby
Please give me another chance
To be with u for the last time
To love u and care for u
Just for one last time baby
Maret 13, 2010
not friend but lover
I dont want to be your friend
I wanna be your lover
To spend all my days with u
I want to be the first person u see every morning u wake up
I want to be the last person to kiss your forehead every night u go to bed
I want to be the one u dream every night
I want to be the one u hug every day
I want to be your girl
Your one and only
I wanna be your lover
To spend all my days with u
I want to be the first person u see every morning u wake up
I want to be the last person to kiss your forehead every night u go to bed
I want to be the one u dream every night
I want to be the one u hug every day
I want to be your girl
Your one and only
missing u
Laying here on this bed
Hiding under the quilt from the cold breeze
Hugging the only jumper
That i got from u
It makes me feel like am hugging u
I can still feel the warmth of your body
Through the jumper that i hugged
I miss u alot and alot
And once again i cant sleep
Its 4am now here in melbourne
But yet my eyes are still wide... open
This mind is not get used to sleep
Without the gud night call that it used to get
I get used to ur gud night call
Get used to your warmth of body
Get used to ur kiss
But now everything is gone
I wanna reverse the time
To the time when we are still together
To the time when i still in ur arms
And i will stop the time right at that moment
So that we can be together
Forever and ever
Hiding under the quilt from the cold breeze
Hugging the only jumper
That i got from u
It makes me feel like am hugging u
I can still feel the warmth of your body
Through the jumper that i hugged
I miss u alot and alot
And once again i cant sleep
Its 4am now here in melbourne
But yet my eyes are still wide... open
This mind is not get used to sleep
Without the gud night call that it used to get
I get used to ur gud night call
Get used to your warmth of body
Get used to ur kiss
But now everything is gone
I wanna reverse the time
To the time when we are still together
To the time when i still in ur arms
And i will stop the time right at that moment
So that we can be together
Forever and ever
trust in u
Today i woke up
And i thanks God that i can live another day again
But then i cried
Not because i am happy
But because of the reality
That u are no more here with me
U promise to keep in touch
U promise to be mine forever
Till the day we have to marry other people
But then right now
Where is all your promises
I maybe get used to... u
Who always break promises
But i am the most silly girl
To keep trusting u
And keep letting myself to get hurt
Once again
U break this heart
But also once again
This heart forgives u
Cause this heart love u too much
Too much that it cant stop loving u
And i thanks God that i can live another day again
But then i cried
Not because i am happy
But because of the reality
That u are no more here with me
U promise to keep in touch
U promise to be mine forever
Till the day we have to marry other people
But then right now
Where is all your promises
I maybe get used to... u
Who always break promises
But i am the most silly girl
To keep trusting u
And keep letting myself to get hurt
Once again
U break this heart
But also once again
This heart forgives u
Cause this heart love u too much
Too much that it cant stop loving u
Poems...
Every morning i woke up
I started to think of something
And this fingers just start typing
And a poem is produced
Almost everyday i will write a poem
For people that i love
No matter where and when
This fingers will keep typing
For those who are willing to read
I am not a good poetry
But i am trying my best to be one
I dont write... poems to show off
I just write down what my true feelings are
I dont know since when
I just started to write poems
Or maybe i should say
A paper with tons of words
Showing my feelings right now
For friends out there
Once u are willing to read
I am willing to write
I started to think of something
And this fingers just start typing
And a poem is produced
Almost everyday i will write a poem
For people that i love
No matter where and when
This fingers will keep typing
For those who are willing to read
I am not a good poetry
But i am trying my best to be one
I dont write... poems to show off
I just write down what my true feelings are
I dont know since when
I just started to write poems
Or maybe i should say
A paper with tons of words
Showing my feelings right now
For friends out there
Once u are willing to read
I am willing to write
Januari 24, 2010
Jia you
Itz been for some time that i didnt update my blog... Sorry for that cos I really have no mood to update... Not even in the mood to type... There's lots of things happen since 01.01.2010 till date... Itz been 2 weeks since I last met him... Someone who can make me fall in love after 20 years of life on earth... Hahaha... That's true... I dont know why... I keep telling myself not to love him anymore but I just cant stop this feeling... this feeling is so strong that it cant be stopped... Am so sad when he just go away from my life... But now, I'm gonna make an effort to get into his life again... I dont wanna lose him before giving an effort... And all my frens told me to do so too... I dont wanna be his lover for the time being... Cos at least I wanna be his best fren for the time being... Everything will be just fine if I didnt go that night!! Everything will be just fine if I have no stupid sickness!!! few days after he go away from my life, I started to get depressed and wrote so so many notes letter in my facebook just for him and all this things that I've done is to show my feelings... i dont wanna hide my feelings anymore... I'm gonna chase wadever it takes for my future... i dont wanna regret for something that I havent put in effort anymore... There is no more regret in my life... dont want any regret!! Life has to move on, love have to be achieve... And thats the thing that I will do for now!!!... So guys n gals, please do support me... I reli nid ur support...
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