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Am listening to a song by ANANG HERMANSYAH... The title is "Separuh Jiwaku Pergi" means Half my Soul Go... It's happening to me now... I dont know... Am feeling hurt inside... It's paining... Am crying a lot this few days... But I just cant stopped wad is happening... I love him... He love her... She love him... This is wad happened to me now... I know am stupid and foolish to love him... No one agree... But, I still love him... I will owes love him... Not for 1 month, 1 year, 1 century... But for whole life... I will owes be there for him... Whenever he needs me... I will give him my smile... My everything... But guys, I really dun mean to ruin anyone's life... I just wanna be with him everytime when he needs me... I know... I will be hurt more than now... But, I will accept wad will be happening in the future... I will pray for his happiness all the time... I will care for him... I will love him... That's forever... Am sorry to hurt people who love me... But, I just wanna be myself now... I just wanna love him... Maybe everyone who knows will scold me being so stupid, so foolish, so childish... But please... Just for this time... Let me be myself... Do wad I wanna do... I owes never have the chance to do wadever I wanna do... Since small, wadever my mom n dad said, I will owes listen to them... I never say no... I will owes say yes... Even my dad asked me to break up with my beloved one, I did tat too... But this time, just for this time, let me make my own choice, live with my own choice... I am ready for every hurt that I will take... I am ready for every sadness tat will happen... I am ready for every tears tat will roll off... I am ready... I am not just saying around and am not just playing with the feelings... This time, am real... Am serious... I love him... With all my heart... Even he will not be the one I know for the 1st time... But I will still love him for who he is... I will not regret to know him... I dont regret to let him come into my life... I dont regret that I love him... And I will owes love him... He is someone special for me... Even he will not be there in the future, I will still love him... Sometimes I cant understand myself too... But this is really happening now... I dont ask for advice... I just ask for support... Dont scold me cos no matter wad u guys said, I will still love him... With all my heart, with all my soul, with all my energy... Until my very last breath... I duno how long I will have... I know my own health history... And I know how to manage it... I really will love him for the rest of my life... But God, please, before YOU take me away, just let me see him happy... That's my only wish... Please let me be there to congratz him for his happiness... And after that, YOU can take me whenever YOU want... I will have no more regret... God,please make him as YOUR love one too... Cause he deserve it...