My feeling

Have been busy recently... Besides, I have no mood to blog anyway... I am leaving next month... I am very very happy but I am sad too... Cause I will be going alone and my dear not going with me... Even I know he will go soon after I go, but I still do sad cos I'm gonna miss him so much... I know I am adult already and I should not be a crying baby but... After this whole 1 and half year having this relation with him, I can't lie to myself and say that I don't need him... Cause I really do need him... Not only for now... But forever... For the rest of my life... I need him... I want him... Someone who came into my life and change my life to a better life... To a more happy and colourful life... I love him so much... I just wanna be with him... Cause he is so perfect for me... Even sometimes he is childish and like to get angry without reason or angry easily... But I still do love him and I can't be far from him... I don't care even he sometimes make me cry or make me upset or make me angry... Cause I know he never do it purposely... I like him... Just one thing I don't like about him... he never open minded to me... Only sometimes after I force him... Hahaha... Ok... Dear, I really do love u... I also don't know why I love him... But, when I am near him, my hearts beat fast... My mind is full of him when he is not near me... When I don't have any news from him, I will be very worried... Even I know he is at home or with his friend but I really scare something bad happen to him... Cause I really scare to lost him... Every time when he started to get sick, I will be very worried... Cause I worried I can't meet him... I want to meet him everyday... I want to be with him everyday... That's what I feel... I really just want to be with him... I don't care he is rich or not... I don't care he is handsome or not... I don't care how he treats me... All I want is him... All I want is he to be with me for all my life... I really love him... So, God, please don't take him away from me... Cause I just want to live the rest of my life with him... I miss him so much... I love him so much... Thanks God cause You let me know him... Let me meet him... Let me be with him... Thanks God...