Once more time

The distance between us is so big
Miles and miles away
I cant see u nor touch u
I cant feel u nor kiss u
When u r so far away from me
Then i realize how important u r to me
Can i still have u
Once more time in my life
Can i be with u
Just once more time
I will not care for what others say
As long as i can be with u
Everything doesnt matter anymore
Itz between u and me
No one else
And i promise that no one will separate me from u
Not even the distance will
I just want u again in my life
Just once more time
I dont want anything else
Only u baby
Please give me another chance
To be with u for the last time
To love u and care for u
Just for one last time baby

not friend but lover

I dont want to be your friend
I wanna be your lover
To spend all my days with u
I want to be the first person u see every morning u wake up
I want to be the last person to kiss your forehead every night u go to bed
I want to be the one u dream every night
I want to be the one u hug every day
I want to be your girl
Your one and only

missing u

Laying here on this bed
Hiding under the quilt from the cold breeze
Hugging the only jumper
That i got from u
It makes me feel like am hugging u
I can still feel the warmth of your body
Through the jumper that i hugged
I miss u alot and alot
And once again i cant sleep
Its 4am now here in melbourne
But yet my eyes are still wide... open
This mind is not get used to sleep
Without the gud night call that it used to get
I get used to ur gud night call
Get used to your warmth of body
Get used to ur kiss
But now everything is gone
I wanna reverse the time
To the time when we are still together
To the time when i still in ur arms
And i will stop the time right at that moment
So that we can be together
Forever and ever

trust in u

Today i woke up
And i thanks God that i can live another day again
But then i cried
Not because i am happy
But because of the reality
That u are no more here with me
U promise to keep in touch
U promise to be mine forever
Till the day we have to marry other people
But then right now
Where is all your promises
I maybe get used to... u
Who always break promises
But i am the most silly girl
To keep trusting u
And keep letting myself to get hurt
Once again
U break this heart
But also once again
This heart forgives u
Cause this heart love u too much
Too much that it cant stop loving u

Poems...

Every morning i woke up
I started to think of something
And this fingers just start typing
And a poem is produced
Almost everyday i will write a poem
For people that i love
No matter where and when
This fingers will keep typing
For those who are willing to read
I am not a good poetry
But i am trying my best to be one
I dont write... poems to show off
I just write down what my true feelings are
I dont know since when
I just started to write poems
Or maybe i should say
A paper with tons of words
Showing my feelings right now
For friends out there
Once u are willing to read
I am willing to write

Jia you

Itz been for some time that i didnt update my blog... Sorry for that cos I really have no mood to update... Not even in the mood to type... There's lots of things happen since 01.01.2010 till date... Itz been 2 weeks since I last met him... Someone who can make me fall in love after 20 years of life on earth... Hahaha... That's true... I dont know why... I keep telling myself not to love him anymore but I just cant stop this feeling... this feeling is so strong that it cant be stopped... Am so sad when he just go away from my life... But now, I'm gonna make an effort to get into his life again... I dont wanna lose him before giving an effort... And all my frens told me to do so too... I dont wanna be his lover for the time being... Cos at least I wanna be his best fren for the time being... Everything will be just fine if I didnt go that night!! Everything will be just fine if I have no stupid sickness!!! few days after he go away from my life, I started to get depressed and wrote so so many notes letter in my facebook just for him and all this things that I've done is to show my feelings... i dont wanna hide my feelings anymore... I'm gonna chase wadever it takes for my future... i dont wanna regret for something that I havent put in effort anymore... There is no more regret in my life... dont want any regret!! Life has to move on, love have to be achieve... And thats the thing that I will do for now!!!... So guys n gals, please do support me... I reli nid ur support...

29.12.2009 & 30.12.2009

Last night is 29.12.2009... I watched half of the 3 idiots... it's an Indian movie... New movie... I like it but I only watched half... The reason why I only watched half not bcos the movie is not nice but bcos of him... He suddenly called me n said wana meet me... When he called me, I was eating... He asked me whether I wanna meet him or not and I just keep quiet n didnt say anything... cos I dont feel like meeting him... But he gave me a good excuse... That we need to talk... Then I have to say yes... Then after 20 minutes he arrived... He gave me 3 misscall... N I went out to meet him... When I was going into the car, I took a long deep breath... Hahaha... Funny rite?? Going to meet bf but have to take deep breath... Hahaha... Anyway, when I went into the car, I just sat there and said Hai to him... And I was like meeting a fren... But then he suddenly come forward and hug me... Hahaha... But I just sat down and didnt reply his hug... So he just took my hand and hug himself... Hahaha... Erm... Then he started talking and I just sat there n listen... He thought I didnt listen to him and he stopped talking... But then I said I did listen and he started talking again and he asked me understand or not and I just answered yes yes yes... And I suddenly said I want KFC and he directly drive the car and bought KFC for me... And we ate in the car infront of my house... After that we just kept talking... I duno but he just asked me not to change and begged me not to change but I just cant... When he hug me, I never hug back... When he kissed me, I never kissed back... When he asked me to meet him again, I just said we'll see or wadever... Hmmm... I duno wad I should do... Am confuse but for now, maybe this is the right way... I will just pray for myself... Anyway, guys, new year eve is coming... 2009 is coming to an end... Enjoy the last moment... Last day of 2009... Throw the sadness and the bad things behind and bring the happiness and joy to 2010... Welcome 2010 and dont ever look back anymore... Everything that happened in 2009 is just a past and a lesson for us... Look to the future, look to the front... Something is waiting for us there... Dont ever say impossible cos nothing is impossible... Impossible is something that u have to change to possible... So, from 01.01.2010, make everything impossible in 2009 to be possible... Never have negative thinking cos it will only ruin u... Positive thinking is the best... 2010 = No worry, be happy... So, gambateh...