Have been busy recently... Besides, I have no mood to blog anyway... I am leaving next month... I am very very happy but I am sad too... Cause I will be going alone and my dear not going with me... Even I know he will go soon after I go, but I still do sad cos I'm gonna miss him so much... I know I am adult already and I should not be a crying baby but... After this whole 1 and half year having this relation with him, I can't lie to myself and say that I don't need him... Cause I really do need him... Not only for now... But forever... For the rest of my life... I need him... I want him... Someone who came into my life and change my life to a better life... To a more happy and colourful life... I love him so much... I just wanna be with him... Cause he is so perfect for me... Even sometimes he is childish and like to get angry without reason or angry easily... But I still do love him and I can't be far from him... I don't care even he sometimes make me cry or make me upset or make me angry... Cause I know he never do it purposely... I like him... Just one thing I don't like about him... he never open minded to me... Only sometimes after I force him... Hahaha... Ok... Dear, I really do love u... I also don't know why I love him... But, when I am near him, my hearts beat fast... My mind is full of him when he is not near me... When I don't have any news from him, I will be very worried... Even I know he is at home or with his friend but I really scare something bad happen to him... Cause I really scare to lost him... Every time when he started to get sick, I will be very worried... Cause I worried I can't meet him... I want to meet him everyday... I want to be with him everyday... That's what I feel... I really just want to be with him... I don't care he is rich or not... I don't care he is handsome or not... I don't care how he treats me... All I want is him... All I want is he to be with me for all my life... I really love him... So, God, please don't take him away from me... Cause I just want to live the rest of my life with him... I miss him so much... I love him so much... Thanks God cause You let me know him... Let me meet him... Let me be with him... Thanks God...
Agustus 22, 2009
Agustus 14, 2009
Scare....Stress
I have applied for my Student Visa... Will be going to Australia on September early... I will be studying at Carrick... And one more important thing, I will not be going with my dear !!!! Gees... So sad and so scare... Hahaha... Hope everything will be fine lor... God bless me... I am scare to go alone... Really... As I dunno who will pick me up and I dun even know the road there... Gees... What am I supposed to do if I am lost in the city?? It will be very embrassing... OMG... I can't even think of it... What am I supposed to do if I met bad guy??? Who am I supposed to call if I need help?? Oh gosh... I really confused... Gees... Help me someone... So stress now... OMG...
Juli 30, 2009
Me... Melbourne...
Hai... I'm back... Gees... Been a long time I didn't blog... I am so so busy... So so depressed... So so tired... So so unhappy... But now, if seems like everything starts to go smoothly... I am so so glad that everything can go so smooth... Gees... I am going to Melbourne soon next month... I am so so happy... Ok... I know... I am going there for study + working... But who cares?? Gees... It's el... My friends are all there... I mean like Kuching's friends... Am so so happy... And my dear is going with me too... Yipiiieeeeee...
Ok... Now I want to say something bout this few months... On May... Ok... Day when I came back from my touring with LPPN friends in Bali... Bali... Yeah... A nice place for tourist and should and must be visited by everyone... It's city of paradise... A place for us to enjoy life... Yeah... I love Bali... A place that I love most among cities in Indonesia... Ok... This is the 2nd time I went to Bali and guess what, it's awesome... I learned to guide (cause it's a school toouring)... But yet I went to lots of memorable tourism place and enjoy the 1st time diving... Yeah... Diving is cool... I love it... Diving is expensive but from the photos I got and from the enjoyness that I got, it's worth it... Ok... After came back from Bali, my mom asked me to sit down and talk to her and here everything starts... Mom :" erm... I've been thingking of sending u to Australia...What do u think? " Me :" Oh...I love it... How bout going Melbourne?? My friends are there..." Mom :" Ok... U'll gotta find ur own school which u want to attend and find ur own stay..." Me:" No prob..." Ok... After this, here I start to find everything that I need and I found this Specta Education place when I went to shopping malls with my dear... And after chit chat a while, I think that it's good... And here I start to found Carrick Institute... Great... But I have to have my IELTS test for 5.5 minimal.. And I got 6.0... Yeah... I pass my IELTS and I start to put my name in for Carrick Advance Diploma Tourism Management... But then, few days ago, my mom change her mind to let me study tourism again... She ask me to study Hospitality... Ok... I listen to her cos I just want to go away from Indonesia... So, actually it's fine with me... Ok... So yesterday I got my offer letter for the hospitality... And mom said she will pay for it on Monday... Ok... Thanks GOD for this news...
For the Melbourne thing, I think tat's all... For me... Nothing is much more important than this Melbourne thing cause I really really want faster go Melbourne...
Ok... Now I want to say something bout this few months... On May... Ok... Day when I came back from my touring with LPPN friends in Bali... Bali... Yeah... A nice place for tourist and should and must be visited by everyone... It's city of paradise... A place for us to enjoy life... Yeah... I love Bali... A place that I love most among cities in Indonesia... Ok... This is the 2nd time I went to Bali and guess what, it's awesome... I learned to guide (cause it's a school toouring)... But yet I went to lots of memorable tourism place and enjoy the 1st time diving... Yeah... Diving is cool... I love it... Diving is expensive but from the photos I got and from the enjoyness that I got, it's worth it... Ok... After came back from Bali, my mom asked me to sit down and talk to her and here everything starts... Mom :" erm... I've been thingking of sending u to Australia...What do u think? " Me :" Oh...I love it... How bout going Melbourne?? My friends are there..." Mom :" Ok... U'll gotta find ur own school which u want to attend and find ur own stay..." Me:" No prob..." Ok... After this, here I start to find everything that I need and I found this Specta Education place when I went to shopping malls with my dear... And after chit chat a while, I think that it's good... And here I start to found Carrick Institute... Great... But I have to have my IELTS test for 5.5 minimal.. And I got 6.0... Yeah... I pass my IELTS and I start to put my name in for Carrick Advance Diploma Tourism Management... But then, few days ago, my mom change her mind to let me study tourism again... She ask me to study Hospitality... Ok... I listen to her cos I just want to go away from Indonesia... So, actually it's fine with me... Ok... So yesterday I got my offer letter for the hospitality... And mom said she will pay for it on Monday... Ok... Thanks GOD for this news...
For the Melbourne thing, I think tat's all... For me... Nothing is much more important than this Melbourne thing cause I really really want faster go Melbourne...
Tagged by Cathy ^^
Once you've been tagged, you have to answer all the question HONESTLY. Lastly choose 6 people to be tagged :)
1. How old were you when you had your first relationship ? --> 14 !_!
2. Are you taken/single? --> taken
3. Do you like anyone right now? --> yeah
4.. Ever had your heartbroken? --> of course
5. Miss anyone right now? --> yups...
6. Who was the last person you sent a text to? --> baby boy
7. Last person to text you? --> baby boy
8. Last person you saw? --> indah & mom
9. What was the last thing you said to someone? --> duno.. T_T
10. Who is top in your top friends? --> duno...
11. Who do you trust the most in your life? --> my boy.. ^^
12. Who do you love most? --> actually weird answer... GOD.. yes, i love HIM most...
13. Ever been in love? --> yeah...
14. Who has hurt you the most? --> mom maybe??
15. Has a tragedy ever happened in your life? --> tragedy like wad????
16. Are you happy? --> for now, yeah...**Going Melbourne soon man**
17. How many good friends do you have? --> ermmmm 3...
18. Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone? --> nope...i love all songs...
19. Have you ever cheated on a partner? --> yeah... T_T
20. Ever been cheated on? --> yeah !_!
21. Ever been told someone loved you? --> yeahhhhh
22. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? --> of course
23. Not meant it???? --> nope...
24. What is your idea of true love? --> i duno...i just found my true love like tat...
25. Do you believe in love at first sight? --> i doo...
26. Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love? --> i dont know..dun ask me...
you're tagged :
1. anton
2. renata
3. u sun
4. sze wei
5. bii
6. kartika
1. How old were you when you had your first relationship ? --> 14 !_!
2. Are you taken/single? --> taken
3. Do you like anyone right now? --> yeah
4.. Ever had your heartbroken? --> of course
5. Miss anyone right now? --> yups...
6. Who was the last person you sent a text to? --> baby boy
7. Last person to text you? --> baby boy
8. Last person you saw? --> indah & mom
9. What was the last thing you said to someone? --> duno.. T_T
10. Who is top in your top friends? --> duno...
11. Who do you trust the most in your life? --> my boy.. ^^
12. Who do you love most? --> actually weird answer... GOD.. yes, i love HIM most...
13. Ever been in love? --> yeah...
14. Who has hurt you the most? --> mom maybe??
15. Has a tragedy ever happened in your life? --> tragedy like wad????
16. Are you happy? --> for now, yeah...**Going Melbourne soon man**
17. How many good friends do you have? --> ermmmm 3...
18. Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone? --> nope...i love all songs...
19. Have you ever cheated on a partner? --> yeah... T_T
20. Ever been cheated on? --> yeah !_!
21. Ever been told someone loved you? --> yeahhhhh
22. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? --> of course
23. Not meant it???? --> nope...
24. What is your idea of true love? --> i duno...i just found my true love like tat...
25. Do you believe in love at first sight? --> i doo...
26. Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love? --> i dont know..dun ask me...
you're tagged :
1. anton
2. renata
3. u sun
4. sze wei
5. bii
6. kartika
Juni 27, 2009
Memoriez of my brother
Today is 27th June 2009... Today I remember everything about my brother and my child time... Suddenly, I miss my brother... And I suddenly felt the love from my brother to me...
Remember when I was still baby, there's something on my armpit until my hand can't put down cause the thing is as big as egg... My mom brought me see doctor and if want to have surgery, it will cause a lot... So my mom thinking of surgery me herself... Ok... Then here the surgery start... My mom prepare the surgery tools and my dad prepare the alcohol... Dunno what's that for la... Then here comes the surgery time... My mom grabbed my arm and just cut it off... The blood splash all over her face and shirt and I started to cry... And my brother who sit aside watching, also start crying... My dad looks at me and felt sad... So, he ask my mom let me go 1st... Just calm me down... But u know baby lar... Wont stop so fast... So, I kept crying till almost fainted... Hahaha... Then my mom grabbed me again and clean the blood and all... My brother just come near my mom and bite her hand cause he felt sad see me cry till like that... Haha... From here, I feel my brother love me so much...
Another one is when I'm adult liao... My brother always cook for me dinner or lunch and if I need him, he always there for me... He love me more than anyone... He directly pick me up everytime I called him... He stay awake just to wait me home... He rush home just to cook me dinner... Bro, I love u... Thanks for all the love u gave me... I'm sad cos we are now far apart... I really hope u are here with me to share everything with me... Laugh with me, cry with me... Joke with me... Anything... I miss every moment we spent together... Why life so mean to us?? Why life have to separate us?? Ko, u know that I never can be close to Tika as I am close to u... Please come back to me... Cos, I want to share everything with u... Every single story of my life... Every part of my days... Just to share it with u...
Ko, take care of urself there...
Love,
May
Remember when I was still baby, there's something on my armpit until my hand can't put down cause the thing is as big as egg... My mom brought me see doctor and if want to have surgery, it will cause a lot... So my mom thinking of surgery me herself... Ok... Then here the surgery start... My mom prepare the surgery tools and my dad prepare the alcohol... Dunno what's that for la... Then here comes the surgery time... My mom grabbed my arm and just cut it off... The blood splash all over her face and shirt and I started to cry... And my brother who sit aside watching, also start crying... My dad looks at me and felt sad... So, he ask my mom let me go 1st... Just calm me down... But u know baby lar... Wont stop so fast... So, I kept crying till almost fainted... Hahaha... Then my mom grabbed me again and clean the blood and all... My brother just come near my mom and bite her hand cause he felt sad see me cry till like that... Haha... From here, I feel my brother love me so much...
Another one is when I'm adult liao... My brother always cook for me dinner or lunch and if I need him, he always there for me... He love me more than anyone... He directly pick me up everytime I called him... He stay awake just to wait me home... He rush home just to cook me dinner... Bro, I love u... Thanks for all the love u gave me... I'm sad cos we are now far apart... I really hope u are here with me to share everything with me... Laugh with me, cry with me... Joke with me... Anything... I miss every moment we spent together... Why life so mean to us?? Why life have to separate us?? Ko, u know that I never can be close to Tika as I am close to u... Please come back to me... Cos, I want to share everything with u... Every single story of my life... Every part of my days... Just to share it with u...
Ko, take care of urself there...
Love,
May
April 24, 2009
To U SUN
This blog is posted for a best friend of mine who just lost her beloved one...
Dear, maybe for u it's a hardest thing to accept n it's hard for u to carry on ur life without that special someone... But I just want to let u know something... Life is urs... With or without that special someone, u still need to carry on... Ok... Even that special someone is ur dad... Actually, for me... With or without my parents, actually it's the same... Cos I'm borned in differrent family with urs... Who love u and care for u so much... U grown up in a good family... Not like me... I guess u know what I mean... I know saying parents is not the only thing in this earth is wrong but without them, u still need to get on ur life... Keep on thinking on the past isn't good for u... While u r here wasting ur time thinking of the past, others r going 1 step further than u... So, dont waste ur time thinking of the past but keep ur step to the future... People staying on the earth is for future... Not for the past... Even u keep thinking of it, ur dad won't be able to come back... Why not u step forward and let ur dad see that u can??!! I'm saying all this cos I love u... We have been friends for almost 14 years... And I'm sad to see u so moody... So, cheear up... I bet ur dad also wish to see u and ur family happy... If got anything, just msg me... Cos I'll owes be here for u... I promise...
From ur 14 years friend...
Dear, maybe for u it's a hardest thing to accept n it's hard for u to carry on ur life without that special someone... But I just want to let u know something... Life is urs... With or without that special someone, u still need to carry on... Ok... Even that special someone is ur dad... Actually, for me... With or without my parents, actually it's the same... Cos I'm borned in differrent family with urs... Who love u and care for u so much... U grown up in a good family... Not like me... I guess u know what I mean... I know saying parents is not the only thing in this earth is wrong but without them, u still need to get on ur life... Keep on thinking on the past isn't good for u... While u r here wasting ur time thinking of the past, others r going 1 step further than u... So, dont waste ur time thinking of the past but keep ur step to the future... People staying on the earth is for future... Not for the past... Even u keep thinking of it, ur dad won't be able to come back... Why not u step forward and let ur dad see that u can??!! I'm saying all this cos I love u... We have been friends for almost 14 years... And I'm sad to see u so moody... So, cheear up... I bet ur dad also wish to see u and ur family happy... If got anything, just msg me... Cos I'll owes be here for u... I promise...
From ur 14 years friend...
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Have been crying recently... Until my eyes really really tired... Writing on this blog, I have no idea wanna type what... My brain is empty... N so do my soul... I am gone to far far away kingdom... I just dont know what should I do now... This 2 days having exam and it's quite easy and I can make it... Hmmmzzz... Really dont know what to type even there's so many thing I want to say out... That's all... Really empty brain now...
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